That's understandable. You're allowed to be thrown off by the end of the world.
[ or (presumably) whatever came before it. it's not like the picture she saw paints the portrait of a happy, uncomplicated life in Brooklyn. add in what she knows about Steve, about how there's nothing uncomplicated in that guy's past, and she figures there's more to deal with than cold weather and weird pictures. ]
I didn't mean to make things heavy when I mentioned my son. I just... [ she pauses, like she can't decide whether or not to explain herself. the guy's got enough to sort through without her adding to it, she just figures he's probably not much of a talker on his own.
she didn't used to be, either, so maybe she's projecting.] I'm not as good at being hopeful as he is. Henry believes in everyone all the time.
[ and with a little self-awareness, she adds;] To the surprise of no one, the kid's a lot better at making friends than I am.
[ or (presumably) whatever came before it. it's not like the picture she saw paints the portrait of a happy, uncomplicated life in Brooklyn. add in what she knows about Steve, about how there's nothing uncomplicated in that guy's past, and she figures there's more to deal with than cold weather and weird pictures. ]
I didn't mean to make things heavy when I mentioned my son. I just... [ she pauses, like she can't decide whether or not to explain herself. the guy's got enough to sort through without her adding to it, she just figures he's probably not much of a talker on his own.
she didn't used to be, either, so maybe she's projecting.] I'm not as good at being hopeful as he is. Henry believes in everyone all the time.
[ and with a little self-awareness, she adds;] To the surprise of no one, the kid's a lot better at making friends than I am.
[ she could tell him more about the past. about how much better he's already taking it than the last time. she could, but she won't.
instead, her tone is light, a little flippant and a little flirtatious. ]
Not recently.
instead, her tone is light, a little flippant and a little flirtatious. ]
Not recently.
Rumlow was careful, had to be in his line of work. He had to pick his words and his actions very precisely, so much so that the very act of it was second-nature. He knew that blowing his cover here would end up with a very uncomfortable situation where he might end up freezing to death, which was such a boring way to go. All shivers, all blindness and then a person pretty much goes to sleep in numbness.
He returned to his work, filling his sack with more wires and clips and panels, though he was about ready to move on to another section. He grinned at the comment about dream, and he shrugged his shoulders. "For some, it ain't a dream. I slept like shit for years when I got back, always waking in a cold sweat, reaching for my gun. Then... as I learned to cope, it got better. I balanced."
He threw his sack over his shoulder and gestured for the Soldier to potentially follow him. Well, the guy was welcome anyway. "You give me the impression you're a survivor, and no matter what, you'll make it through the other side. So, kid, survive. Accept what you can control and work hard to try to control the things you can't. Oh and surround yourself with people who get it."
He returned to his work, filling his sack with more wires and clips and panels, though he was about ready to move on to another section. He grinned at the comment about dream, and he shrugged his shoulders. "For some, it ain't a dream. I slept like shit for years when I got back, always waking in a cold sweat, reaching for my gun. Then... as I learned to cope, it got better. I balanced."
He threw his sack over his shoulder and gestured for the Soldier to potentially follow him. Well, the guy was welcome anyway. "You give me the impression you're a survivor, and no matter what, you'll make it through the other side. So, kid, survive. Accept what you can control and work hard to try to control the things you can't. Oh and surround yourself with people who get it."
[ it hasn't happened to dutch yet. she's been here for a year and out of stasis for all but three days and she'd come out after those three days still remembering everything. still remembering her time here and more from home -- but she knows what it feels like to have no control, to be used as a weapon, for someone else to determine her actions, her beliefs.
she knows what that's like, and she hates it. memory is just one more way to manipulate; like khlyen had done with aneela. with her, too, in a way, withholding pieces of her past from her. ]
Got a whole quota worked out? [ her tone remains light. ]
she knows what that's like, and she hates it. memory is just one more way to manipulate; like khlyen had done with aneela. with her, too, in a way, withholding pieces of her past from her. ]
Got a whole quota worked out? [ her tone remains light. ]
That would make two of them, though he hadn't entirely lived through the other side of that incident of a building collapsing on him. He had heard about it though, had even been accused of other activities after the fact that annoyed him. He supposed that the Soldier was far more resilient than even he was, but it stood to reason as well.
"I assume you weren't digging slit trenches in the back yard or accidentally shooting at your relatives for asking if you want coffee unexpectedly." He moved deeper into the wreckage, allowing the Soldier the privilege of keeping watch on his six. Like they were falling into an old routine.
"I'm usually right, if that makes you feel better? I've been technically out for awhile, and I spent a few years helping to integrate men and women from the service back into society." Also known as quiet recruitment. Most of his team had been hand-picked by him after all.
"I assume you weren't digging slit trenches in the back yard or accidentally shooting at your relatives for asking if you want coffee unexpectedly." He moved deeper into the wreckage, allowing the Soldier the privilege of keeping watch on his six. Like they were falling into an old routine.
"I'm usually right, if that makes you feel better? I've been technically out for awhile, and I spent a few years helping to integrate men and women from the service back into society." Also known as quiet recruitment. Most of his team had been hand-picked by him after all.
"Depends on the person, the mission and the damage," he replied with a shrug of his shoulders. Some of them will never be able to integrate, and we don't exactly have the best support system given the number of military personnel that there are. "I help who I can, and that's all there is to it. Unfortunately, work has been super busy before I came here, so I couldn't dedicate as much time to it."
He found a new area and snooped around looking for parts to salvage. It was almost comfortable like this, taking the lead with a good soldier at his back. It felt like old times, maybe the first time he had experienced that since coming here. "And if you need someone just to shoot the shit with, I'll lend an ear."
He found a new area and snooped around looking for parts to salvage. It was almost comfortable like this, taking the lead with a good soldier at his back. It felt like old times, maybe the first time he had experienced that since coming here. "And if you need someone just to shoot the shit with, I'll lend an ear."
Ha, that's gotta be the first time he had seen the Soldier look surprised, subtle as it was. In any other circumstances, he likely would have taken the time to enjoy the moment more, but there was business to be done and he was ever loyal to potentially cementing himself into having a place to stay and clout here. There would be plenty of time to reflect on the look on his own, maybe over a drink or something.
Rumlow wasn't one to talk feelings, not really. He would listen, and he would offer the shoulder needed when and how it was, but he had long ago been stunted. He just knew how to fake it better than most people, and he had plenty of experience doing that over the years.
"Hey, what are friends for, right?" Is that what they were? Sure, he would run with that. "You got my back, I got yours. I never did ask though: what branch did you serve with? Can't be Air Force. You aren't tittery enough for that."
Rumlow wasn't one to talk feelings, not really. He would listen, and he would offer the shoulder needed when and how it was, but he had long ago been stunted. He just knew how to fake it better than most people, and he had plenty of experience doing that over the years.
"Hey, what are friends for, right?" Is that what they were? Sure, he would run with that. "You got my back, I got yours. I never did ask though: what branch did you serve with? Can't be Air Force. You aren't tittery enough for that."
Rumlow's version of friendship was rather different than most. For one, he and his friends tended to be rather crude and violent with their relationship, and they often took nothing personally. They opened up here and there, shot the shit, but it was mostly about having one another's back. He had learned through being a soldier that he didn't have to like everyone on his team, but he had to trust them and their skills. That was the basis of how he formed friendships.
And the Soldier... well, he figured the Soldier could use a friend like that. No questions asked, no expectations except to not let him get shot, mauled and broken unless he actually wanted to be. He'd return the favour, and if they needed to shoot the shit, he would be there for that too. Well, until the Soldier found out who he was and what he had associated with, but even then, they were something of the same but with vastly different reasons to why.
"Ah, an infantryman, huh? You do seem like the kind of capable man with a rank to you," he said with a nod of his head. He would have saluted, but his hands were busy and he figured it would push the conversation towards a formality that neither of them needed or wanted. "Were you deployed in Europe, Southeast Asia or the Middle East?" He knew exactly where of course, but it would be strange not to ask, even if he left broad and generalized.
Rumlow smiled at the guess. "No, I was Army," he said proudly. "I joined that branch because of my childhood hero, and I made Corporal and then stopped. Too much paperwork in the higher NCO ranks, and I like to be down with the men elbowing through the dirt more than the average bear."
And the Soldier... well, he figured the Soldier could use a friend like that. No questions asked, no expectations except to not let him get shot, mauled and broken unless he actually wanted to be. He'd return the favour, and if they needed to shoot the shit, he would be there for that too. Well, until the Soldier found out who he was and what he had associated with, but even then, they were something of the same but with vastly different reasons to why.
"Ah, an infantryman, huh? You do seem like the kind of capable man with a rank to you," he said with a nod of his head. He would have saluted, but his hands were busy and he figured it would push the conversation towards a formality that neither of them needed or wanted. "Were you deployed in Europe, Southeast Asia or the Middle East?" He knew exactly where of course, but it would be strange not to ask, even if he left broad and generalized.
Rumlow smiled at the guess. "No, I was Army," he said proudly. "I joined that branch because of my childhood hero, and I made Corporal and then stopped. Too much paperwork in the higher NCO ranks, and I like to be down with the men elbowing through the dirt more than the average bear."
He nodded his head, and he knew exactly the kind of contributions that snipers made in the Second Great War. The most famous of them were from the Soviet Union, but he knew a few Americans which had contributed. They were often a sticking point, and now in the US military service, their identities were sealed to protect them. Back then... no so much.
"I bet you would. Europe can be some rough terrain, probably difficult to find a good nest to station yourself in outside of old buildings. It would be a pain if you were the attacker and had to continually move," he said, though he knew that they were insinuating vastly different timelines. It was part of the game.
Now he knew he had walked himself into a corner with mentioning a childhood hero, and he couldn't well say Bucky Barnes or Steve Rogers as that would give away that they were of the same world and it would lead to more questions. He smiled all the same and said a name he knew the Soldier wouldn't know but could actually find, "Gary Gordon. He was Delta Force who protected the injured after a helicopter crash. They gave him the Medal of Honor and everything."
In the end, it hadn't been a sniper to convince him to join. It had been old comics, hard fought to stay hidden and one of the few bright points of an otherwise bitterly sour childhood. "I was a natural apparently, so I became a sniper as well. Still hated paperwork."
"I bet you would. Europe can be some rough terrain, probably difficult to find a good nest to station yourself in outside of old buildings. It would be a pain if you were the attacker and had to continually move," he said, though he knew that they were insinuating vastly different timelines. It was part of the game.
Now he knew he had walked himself into a corner with mentioning a childhood hero, and he couldn't well say Bucky Barnes or Steve Rogers as that would give away that they were of the same world and it would lead to more questions. He smiled all the same and said a name he knew the Soldier wouldn't know but could actually find, "Gary Gordon. He was Delta Force who protected the injured after a helicopter crash. They gave him the Medal of Honor and everything."
In the end, it hadn't been a sniper to convince him to join. It had been old comics, hard fought to stay hidden and one of the few bright points of an otherwise bitterly sour childhood. "I was a natural apparently, so I became a sniper as well. Still hated paperwork."
Then you're ahead of me, because not good with people has always been my natural state.
[ she smiles though, because it's a little easier if he's owning it, too. opening up is infinitely harder without Henry here to point her in the right direction, but she'd like do make the kid proud all the same.]
Steve's one sword short of being a Disney prince these days. And I'd know, he reminds me of my dad.
[ big time.]
[ she smiles though, because it's a little easier if he's owning it, too. opening up is infinitely harder without Henry here to point her in the right direction, but she'd like do make the kid proud all the same.]
Steve's one sword short of being a Disney prince these days. And I'd know, he reminds me of my dad.
[ big time.]
He was literally part of the government who went into all manner of places under secrets orders to set a certain precedent. Before that, he was part of many military operations that could never be disclosed to the public and would never receive acknowledgement for. That was just the way it was, and he didn't do it so someone could pat him on the ass. It was interesting how, if he had no idea who the Soldier was, he could have allowed the leading silences and little clues to build a completely different narrative than he knew existed. So the Soldier had skills beyond simply being handed all the toughest missions and basically soloing them.
"I'm not sure if they would have record of him here, but by all means," he said with a grin. Of course, Gary Gordon was acknowledged with another sniper at the same place doing the same job, but he couldn't recall the guy's name at this point.
Now there was a loaded question, wasn't it? He supposed that generalizing was his only option at this point. "Not much, though I've participated in a hostage situation. I haven't been here long enough to completely understand the politics, but I get involved in the little things. What about you?"
"I'm not sure if they would have record of him here, but by all means," he said with a grin. Of course, Gary Gordon was acknowledged with another sniper at the same place doing the same job, but he couldn't recall the guy's name at this point.
Now there was a loaded question, wasn't it? He supposed that generalizing was his only option at this point. "Not much, though I've participated in a hostage situation. I haven't been here long enough to completely understand the politics, but I get involved in the little things. What about you?"
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