IC Inbox - Deerington

[lednikovyy]

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[morethan084]

Don’t.

You weren’t yourself, Bucky. It wasn’t you.

[lednikovyy]

I've spent more of my life as that than I have as myself. how do you draw the line?

[morethan084]

Because if that was even remotely who you were, you wouldn't be beating yourself up over what happened.

[lednikovyy]

I thought I was finally safe to be around. I'm sorry. I was wrong.

[morethan084]

[Maybe she should be angry about what he did to her, but if she's angry at anything it's the situation itself. Not him.]

So what's the solution? You isolate yourself?

Let an accident consume you?

[lednikovyy]

70 years of conditioning aren't an accident.

[morethan084]

But yesterday was, and it wasn’t just you.

[lednikovyy]

doesn't it bother you that you'd be dead if someone else hadn't stopped me?

[morethan084]

[It may have crossed her mind...]

But I’m not. So why dwell on it?

[Even though she totally had nightmares involving him last night.]

[lednikovyy]

because I'm good and next time you won't be that lucky.

[morethan084]

There won’t be a next time.

[lednikovyy]

glad we agree

[ This is fine. ]

[morethan084]

So what? That's it? You won't go anywhere without a bodyguard now?

(tw: idk if they're suicidal thoughts or just adjacent?)

[lednikovyy]

I don't know. maybe I just need to make sure I'm around people who can put me down if they need to.

[morethan084]

Don't.

Don't say things like that.

[lednikovyy]

truth hurts.

[morethan084]

Where are you?

[Because she can't handle him talking like this. This isn't him.]

[lednikovyy]

[ And that's when he stops answering. ]