yeah, thanks. same goes, you know. I won't judge you. I mean, as long as you weren't a Dodgers fan.
[Look, he grew up on a military base in New Jersey, he's totally a Yankees fan. The Yankees were amazing back in the 40s. Also, it's easier to deflect how much that means with a joke.]
I'm gonna contract with someone. And that's more or less public knowledge, which means he's gonna find out eventually and then he'll give me that look for not tellin him.
But it's another guy. And I haven't talked to him about that part yet.
2. contracts aren't always sexual, right? cause me and Steve aren't having sex last I checked.
3. clearly yours is, because otherwise you wouldn't be worried about this, right? I don't really know what to tell you to do with that, because I had something going on with a guy Steve and I were both friends with back on that planet I told you about and I never told him, so I'm maybe not the best person to ask about this stuff. I guess even if I had told him, the Steve here wouldn't remember it, but I haven't told any version of Steve. so.
I don't think he'll care in a bad way, though. I didn't tell him back there because he'd just married the love of his life and then she went back into cryo and then the world was ending. never seemed like the right time to mention I had a crush on someone. now, Steve's barely adjusted to the fact that it isn't 1945. still seems like bad timing.
There's no version of Steve who'd ever stop loving you cause of that, though.
sure, but I still reserve the right to judge you for it.
they say that, but it's pretty clear that's what they're angling for or they wouldn't make it illegal for people to spend the night with people other than the person they're contracted to.
-- yeah. but he's good. I mean, I didn't know I was into it until I ended up here, really.
and the last time I was involved in a secret being kept from Steve on account of bad timing, it was the fact that I wasn't actually dead. and then about a week after my funeral I sort of did something really stupid and the only reason no one got hurt was because Steve stopped me. so I dunno, I guess I feel like I owe him at least trying.
[He figures Bucky knows just as well as James does that no secrets isn't on the table. But trying he thinks he can do.]
you're probably right. but it's someone from home, someone Steve knows. one of the Avengers. and I haven't even told him I like to kiss guys. but... yeah, I guess you're right. Steve's too damn stubborn. things have been kind of weird between us here. I think it's my fault. when I got here... I thought he was dead and he had so many years on me none of that mattered to him, really. and for me it was like talking to a ghost.
well I'd rather just not have sex than give control of my life to someone I barely know.
and yeah I didn't really think about men being an option until I met Thomas. I hadn't been with anyone else since the 40s. I still... I hope he's okay, you know? cause he's not here.
but there's a big difference between not sharing your sex life and letting someone think you're dead, but considering the fact that I led Steve on a two year chase after he found me again, I can't really judge, right?
look, just tell Steve cause you know it'll work out, even if he's uncomfortable. he'll come around.
Yeah. I'd never really been with anyone except Natasha, you know, I'd kissed other girls in the 40s, but she was my only real relationship, so I just never thought about it. Then with how this place is everything just sorta... But yeah, I get it. I worry about Sam sometimes. The one back home, I mean.
Okay, you have a point. I did that too, actually. Even ran into him again, but I couldn't really face him yet, so after the fight I just took off.
But yeah, you're right. I mean, worst option is probably that Steve gets it in his head to try and talk to Clint or something.
well I'm going to be a huge hypocrite and tell you to tell him and then you can let me know how he reacts and then I'll know if I should tell mine.
it's weird. I wasn't even sure if I'd ever care about sex again, but after I slept with him, it reminded me of how much I like sex. because I'd actually had sex before. with more than one person.
seriously, only Natasha? she's kind of scary.
please never tell any version of her that I said that.
I'll tell you how it goes. I'd say you owe me a drink after, but this place is fucked. so maybe you can come over and we can split a few beers or something.
yknow it sounds almost like you're mocking me.
but I get the idea a little bit, I think. cause it was sort of like that with Natasha the first time. I didn't know who I was back in those days, but being with her... it made me feel like I was- something. human. made me remember what that felt like.
they sent me off to train with the SAS on my sixteenth birthday, and then the war started so I never really had much opportunity for more than flirting and a little fooling around before that. then when I put my brain back together enough to think about wanting to, I ended up running into Tasha again. so everything here has been sort of a learning experience.
yeah there's just something about being close to someone, isn't there? sometimes I feel like my head's floating away. people can really ground that. reminds me that the sky isn't really falling.
and of course you like it. there's nothing sexier than a woman who can destroy you.
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you okay? relatively speaking, of course.
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Maybe even good, I dunno.
But there's something I feel like I should probably tell Steve. My Steve. But it's weird.
Figured maybe it'd be easier talking to you first.
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[ He's too busy judging himself. ]
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I mean, as long as you weren't a Dodgers fan.
[Look, he grew up on a military base in New Jersey, he's totally a Yankees fan. The Yankees were amazing back in the 40s. Also, it's easier to deflect how much that means with a joke.]
I'm gonna contract with someone. And that's more or less public knowledge, which means he's gonna find out eventually and then he'll give me that look for not tellin him.
But it's another guy. And I haven't talked to him about that part yet.
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2. contracts aren't always sexual, right? cause me and Steve aren't having sex last I checked.
3. clearly yours is, because otherwise you wouldn't be worried about this, right? I don't really know what to tell you to do with that, because I had something going on with a guy Steve and I were both friends with back on that planet I told you about and I never told him, so I'm maybe not the best person to ask about this stuff. I guess even if I had told him, the Steve here wouldn't remember it, but I haven't told any version of Steve. so.
I don't think he'll care in a bad way, though. I didn't tell him back there because he'd just married the love of his life and then she went back into cryo and then the world was ending. never seemed like the right time to mention I had a crush on someone. now, Steve's barely adjusted to the fact that it isn't 1945. still seems like bad timing.
There's no version of Steve who'd ever stop loving you cause of that, though.
4. fuck you I'm from Brooklyn
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they say that, but it's pretty clear that's what they're angling for or they wouldn't make it illegal for people to spend the night with people other than the person they're contracted to.
-- yeah. but he's good. I mean, I didn't know I was into it until I ended up here, really.
and the last time I was involved in a secret being kept from Steve on account of bad timing, it was the fact that I wasn't actually dead. and then about a week after my funeral I sort of did something really stupid and the only reason no one got hurt was because Steve stopped me. so I dunno, I guess I feel like I owe him at least trying.
[He figures Bucky knows just as well as James does that no secrets isn't on the table. But trying he thinks he can do.]
you're probably right. but it's someone from home, someone Steve knows. one of the Avengers. and I haven't even told him I like to kiss guys. but... yeah, I guess you're right. Steve's too damn stubborn. things have been kind of weird between us here. I think it's my fault. when I got here... I thought he was dead and he had so many years on me none of that mattered to him, really. and for me it was like talking to a ghost.
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and yeah I didn't really think about men being an option until I met Thomas. I hadn't been with anyone else since the 40s. I still... I hope he's okay, you know? cause he's not here.
but there's a big difference between not sharing your sex life and letting someone think you're dead, but considering the fact that I led Steve on a two year chase after he found me again, I can't really judge, right?
look, just tell Steve cause you know it'll work out, even if he's uncomfortable. he'll come around.
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Okay, you have a point. I did that too, actually. Even ran into him again, but I couldn't really face him yet, so after the fight I just took off.
But yeah, you're right. I mean, worst option is probably that Steve gets it in his head to try and talk to Clint or something.
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it's weird. I wasn't even sure if I'd ever care about sex again, but after I slept with him, it reminded me of how much I like sex. because I'd actually had sex before. with more than one person.
seriously, only Natasha? she's kind of scary.
please never tell any version of her that I said that.
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yknow it sounds almost like you're mocking me.
but I get the idea a little bit, I think. cause it was sort of like that with Natasha the first time. I didn't know who I was back in those days, but being with her... it made me feel like I was- something. human. made me remember what that felt like.
they sent me off to train with the SAS on my sixteenth birthday, and then the war started so I never really had much opportunity for more than flirting and a little fooling around before that. then when I put my brain back together enough to think about wanting to, I ended up running into Tasha again. so everything here has been sort of a learning experience.
I wont tell her. I kinda like it, though.
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and of course you like it. there's nothing sexier than a woman who can destroy you.
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yeah, that's... pretty true. Nat threatened to either shoot me or throw a grenade at me the first time we met.
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dumb little things feel amazing now.