Guy's taking a swing at monogamy in a place like this? Brave.
[ Bucky figures maybe it does work for some people. Hell, before this place, he'd been pretty interested in exactly one person since the war, but he can't help the fact that he's let a few more people into whatever's left of his heart now and he's slept with at least a few more. ]
I don't know. I think there's a lot of room to hurt or disappoint someone with it.
[ Bucky pauses for a moment, gathering thoughts. He's not much of a sharing guy these days, but with some things, he's started wearing his heart on his sleeve a little bit again. ]
I came here over a year ago with feelings for someone who wasn't here and when he eventually showed up, he didn't remember even meeting me. Before that, things kind of started up with Steve, too, and we had to have a talk about... everything. I told him that I was coming home to him every night, but I wasn't going to stop sleeping with the other people I care about. He's had other people, too. A few times, we've both cared about the same people, like with Peggy. So... I don't know. I think we were making it all work pretty well, to be honest, but if someone tried to make me choose between Steve and Thomas and Peggy, I'd probably punch them out.
He understands. He doesn't like that arrangement but he does understand this city. And what it makes you do. But, it doesn't make you propose to someone. )
[ Ah. That gives Bucky a lot more of the picture. He's been prepared to get out of Steve and Peggy's way a few times, but he can't say it wouldn't hurt if they actually took him up on it. ]
He doesn't need to. We don't know each other. We never did. Maybe. Maybe we could've. Maybe we could be closer. I could love someone. But, I don't. And he's getting married.
I want - I want it in general. I don't know Magnus to want it with him.
I get that. This stuff's complicated enough when you aren't living in Fuck City.
[ Bucky remembers those first months on El Nysa when he hadn't thought he'd ever want romance or sex with anyone again. He'd been content living as Steve and Peggy's third wheel before he'd met Thomas. ]
You'll find that with someone, though. You're a nice guy. Cute. Maybe a little uptight, but that can be teased out.
( Not for Alec. It's not complicated because being drawn to someone doesn't mean he'd break up their wedding. Or, play side piece as Izzy might put it.
He sets the beer down, stretching one leg out under the table to get comfortable. )
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( He didn't think this through. Warding and backing off from whatever arrangement they'd been making. )
He'll still ward the house.
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[ Bucky figures maybe it does work for some people. Hell, before this place, he'd been pretty interested in exactly one person since the war, but he can't help the fact that he's let a few more people into whatever's left of his heart now and he's slept with at least a few more. ]
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( There's monogamy and there's romance. He's not built for whatever he has with Magnus and what Magnus has with Lucy. )
You don't think it's possible for monogamy here?
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[ Bucky pauses for a moment, gathering thoughts. He's not much of a sharing guy these days, but with some things, he's started wearing his heart on his sleeve a little bit again. ]
I came here over a year ago with feelings for someone who wasn't here and when he eventually showed up, he didn't remember even meeting me. Before that, things kind of started up with Steve, too, and we had to have a talk about... everything. I told him that I was coming home to him every night, but I wasn't going to stop sleeping with the other people I care about. He's had other people, too. A few times, we've both cared about the same people, like with Peggy. So... I don't know. I think we were making it all work pretty well, to be honest, but if someone tried to make me choose between Steve and Thomas and Peggy, I'd probably punch them out.
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He understands. He doesn't like that arrangement but he does understand this city. And what it makes you do. But, it doesn't make you propose to someone. )
I would want to be the man he comes home to.
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Does he know that?
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I want - I want it in general. I don't know Magnus to want it with him.
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[ Bucky remembers those first months on El Nysa when he hadn't thought he'd ever want romance or sex with anyone again. He'd been content living as Steve and Peggy's third wheel before he'd met Thomas. ]
You'll find that with someone, though. You're a nice guy. Cute. Maybe a little uptight, but that can be teased out.
[ A sly little grin. ]
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He sets the beer down, stretching one leg out under the table to get comfortable. )
You think I'm cute?
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[ Not that the fake humble thing isn't also cute. Bucky wonders if he knows anyone he should be introducing Alec to. ]
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( He will 20% do the fake humble thing, bruh.
Please make introductions, though. )
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I've created a monster already.
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( Another sip, another smirk. Yeah. This is a dynamic he can get behind. )