[ He feels like a dumb teenager right now, but maybe that's not a bad thing. Maybe it's good that Thomas makes him feel like some of the heavy years have fallen away. ]
[ At some point, Bucky decided not to bother holding back with Thomas. Probably the first time Thomas wrapped his lips around Bucky's cock it seemed a little silly to hide the fact that he likes him. Besides, Bucky's never been shy about his crushes or attractions. Why start now? Just because Thomas is a man? They both know there's a mutual attraction there and more to the point, they do care about each other.
And maybe there's an evil little part of Bucky that likes getting a rise out of Thomas and poking at his stiff control. He wouldn't do it if he didn't think Thomas enjoyed it, too. ]
[ there's something very powerful about being wanted by someone as utterly attractive as bucky. there's something even more powerful about bucky doing nothing to hide the fact.
(it goes beyond sex, thomas knows — and that helps more than it makes him worried about any number of things, hurting bucky featuring prominently among them. ]
Is it? I've experienced the reality a couple of times now. I know exactly how good it is.
[ He lets his voice slide down just a little, more joking than serious in the seduction, but he does mean what he's saying. Every time he and Thomas fall together, it's been good, and not just because they both get off. There's something there that can't be faked--chemistry and affection--and he finds himself constantly wanting to chase after it. What he's got here with the people he cares about is more than he ever thought he could have after what HYDRA did to him. Thomas is a very real part of that. ]
[ thomas has to clear his throat again, briefly. he turns from the device as he does it, but bucky can probably still hear it. he knows that it's true: bucky has experienced the reality more than once now. (the inverse is true as well: thomas has experienced the reality of it with bucky as well — and he remembers all too well how good it had been.)
still, it feels bold to say as much, to give voice to it. it shouldn't, perhaps, but it does to him. ]
We should [ for a moment, he's not quite sure where he's going with this. then he rallies. ] Go for dinner sometime.
[ He doesn't even wait to answer, can't pretend he's not giddy and eager about it. Thomas is normally so reserved and it feels pretty good to have him make a move like that. Bucky doesn't really question where they stand so much, but still this leaves him feeling warm and buzzing as Thomas continues to make him feel like he's a teenager again in all the best ways. ]
[ it's a strange thing, realising how happy bucky sounds at that, how such a small thing can make bucky this happy. it reminds thomas, again, of the fact that they know each other in different ways, that bucky has known him a lot longer than he has known bucky.
that they are at different points, perhaps. that he has the ability to hurt bucky a great deal more than he often realises. ]
I think — I would, too.
[ he can't remember the last time he deliberately set out like this. what is it called these days? a date. ]
[ Dinner. Shared smiles. Maybe sneaking a few kisses along the way. Sex is great, but what Bucky really craves is affection and intimacy. It brings him so much closer back to feeling human again. ]
[ shave, that is. thomas happens to find the stubble rather attractive, in all honesty. although he imagines he'd find bucky equally attractive without. ]
[ Thomas really is great at making Bucky feel attractive, though. There's a big difference between liking how he looks and knowing that someone else does. ]
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the amusement is nice and thomas feels some answering amusement swirl up in his chest, but there's something else as well. ]
Am I?
[ taken literally, he is, it seems. ]
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[ He feels like a dumb teenager right now, but maybe that's not a bad thing. Maybe it's good that Thomas makes him feel like some of the heavy years have fallen away. ]
Definitely the sexy ones.
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Are those frequent enough?
[ he finds that he hopes the answer is yes. ]
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[ At some point, Bucky decided not to bother holding back with Thomas. Probably the first time Thomas wrapped his lips around Bucky's cock it seemed a little silly to hide the fact that he likes him. Besides, Bucky's never been shy about his crushes or attractions. Why start now? Just because Thomas is a man? They both know there's a mutual attraction there and more to the point, they do care about each other.
And maybe there's an evil little part of Bucky that likes getting a rise out of Thomas and poking at his stiff control. He wouldn't do it if he didn't think Thomas enjoyed it, too. ]
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(it goes beyond sex, thomas knows — and that helps more than it makes him worried about any number of things, hurting bucky featuring prominently among them. ]
A bold claim.
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[ He lets his voice slide down just a little, more joking than serious in the seduction, but he does mean what he's saying. Every time he and Thomas fall together, it's been good, and not just because they both get off. There's something there that can't be faked--chemistry and affection--and he finds himself constantly wanting to chase after it. What he's got here with the people he cares about is more than he ever thought he could have after what HYDRA did to him. Thomas is a very real part of that. ]
Just telling the truth.
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still, it feels bold to say as much, to give voice to it. it shouldn't, perhaps, but it does to him. ]
We should [ for a moment, he's not quite sure where he's going with this. then he rallies. ] Go for dinner sometime.
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[ He doesn't even wait to answer, can't pretend he's not giddy and eager about it. Thomas is normally so reserved and it feels pretty good to have him make a move like that. Bucky doesn't really question where they stand so much, but still this leaves him feeling warm and buzzing as Thomas continues to make him feel like he's a teenager again in all the best ways. ]
I'd like that. A lot.
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that they are at different points, perhaps. that he has the ability to hurt bucky a great deal more than he often realises. ]
I think — I would, too.
[ he can't remember the last time he deliberately set out like this. what is it called these days? a date. ]
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[ Dinner. Shared smiles. Maybe sneaking a few kisses along the way. Sex is great, but what Bucky really craves is affection and intimacy. It brings him so much closer back to feeling human again. ]
I might even shave.
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You don't have to. On my account.
[ shave, that is. thomas happens to find the stubble rather attractive, in all honesty. although he imagines he'd find bucky equally attractive without. ]
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[ Thomas really is great at making Bucky feel attractive, though. There's a big difference between liking how he looks and knowing that someone else does. ]
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then: ]
Sometime next week?
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[ He's glad this isn't a video and Thomas can't see the stupid, giddy face he's making, but he's pretty sure it's clear through his voice, anyway. ]
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[ thomas' features are far less expressive, but there's a hint of a smile on his face as well. equally unseen. ]